I truthfully am a huge hypocrite. I have my zodiac sign tattooed on my but don't closely follow zodiac sh*t. ONE i repeat ONE thing about my zodiac that i will honestly say is true is that gemini's are afraid of commitment. Due to issues in my past I honestly have a huge issue with commitment. I'm so afraid of being hurt and right now leading two totally separate relationships with two VERY different men, i'm stuck. I'm truly stuck. The right thing to do is leave the one that i'm unhappy with but he's so cool and still has moments where he's totally awesome and good to be with while the other guy i've dated before but we had a BRUTAL fall out but honestly he's the better of the two. I'm so afraid of being hurt and i'm also so afraid of hurting them. Even if i left the one thats chill to be around and not even tell him why I left him, it's going to suck because he literally lives a few blocks away. I love his dog sad like sometimes he's absolute TRASH like he f*cking irritates me sometimes but like we already have so many memories and to throw them away would be hard as f*cking hell. The guy I had a brutal fallout with I was hung up on for MONTHS. Dear god it was an absolute sh*t show. I was so depressed and alone.. all I wanted was him but he had "no time" for me then. Funny, his friend even called him out on it. (mind you this is literally my fav friend of his) and was lke wtf are you doing dude. Everything seems so natural now like we just picked it up and got back together as if NOTHING happened between us its so weird. Like i'm so comfortable around him. I just don't know what the f*ck honestly. Not what the f*ck to do, or why the f*ck i'm doing this.... just what the f*ck.
· Wed Dec 06, 2017 @ 03:42am · 0 Comments