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iiied I consider this a blog, or perhaps a journal? Hmm...

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Update !!
It's been a while since I've gave myself an update on here, so here it goes... Well I recently graduated high school. Congrats to me lmao. I am now employed, and I am now single. Shocker I know. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THAT. All month of June, I've been doing nothing and sat home all day sleeping, wasting time on the computer, and dealt with depression. (Note: my depression has not went away since last summer and it's came back after graduation) I procrastinated with school scheduling and finding myself a job. My boyfriend, at the time, was away with NV Boys' State and spending two weeks at Washington with his father. When he got back, I was sooo eager to spend the rest of the summer with him (and I made a list of things to do together) until he leaves for school in August. Around early July, I finally got myself a job and decided to call my boyfriend the good news. During that call, he decided to rip off the bandage early and it ended up with me getting heartbroken. (Sucks i know..) I was really dedicated to try long distance, but I was in denial. Me and him both knew that it wouldn't work due to his priority with family and school and with me always needing support. At first, I was jumping to conclusions that he might find someone else before he leaves and tries to make it work with that other girl. I was convinced by my ex's current gf that it wont happen. (and hopefully it stays that way.) I decided to focus on my job and school that's coming up. Fast forward to present day, I've been happier than I was before. My job made an impact on it, since I procrastinated hella on school, I'm attending in the spring (which is good bc I can have time with my job I JUST got and make money beforehand), and the breakup really gave me a relief. If we stayed together up until now, I know i'd be soooo miserable at work and sadly counting the days he's leaving. If I were to tell the past me (in that state), I'd tell her that everything happens for a reason. To anyone reading this and are going through the same situation, don't worry much about why it's happening. Long distance takes much courage and dedication. It all depends on what both your hearts and guts are telling you.

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